I know its 2 years since I released my first single, but I was in a rush to get my music out into the world and I was all fingers and thumbs with how to approach my new career choice, however, I have eventually got my album ready for release! I am still in final mix down stages and recording the odd extra track to break the insanity of repetitive mixing, but I am happy with how it is progressing.
I have also hit another major breakthrough with my work by signing a publishing deal today, for all of my work thus far and for the forth coming album. It is with a company that has fast become one of the leading figures in the modern industry and I am delighted to be working with them. I have often joked about my drinking and mentioned it in a throw away fashion, but I can honestly say I never thought I would make it to where I am now, in terms of happiness and success.
4 and a half years ago a few days before christmas, I came home from yet another heavy drinking session. I walked into the house and poured myself another drink and was about to start a night time binge, when I collapsed on the floor. My wife had to call an ambulance and begin CPR. Obviously she succeeded or I wouldn’t be typing this. But tis an indication of how close I came to not making it. I would like to think this was my wake up call, but I refused to go with the paramedics and began drinking again the next day, still trying to deny my addiction and explain away my obvious problem.
My wake up came in a very different way when I walked away from wife and my life all for the sake of a weekend of drink. I was saved by a friend and an amazing wife who together with my family guided me to where I am now.
I dont want sympathy for my addiction and never will I ask for it, as everyday I live with my mistakes and my failings and feel lucky to be able to say I got to the other side, as many people never get that luxury. I just think that this chapter in my life has shaped me more than any other. It is with this in mind that I am ready to release the material I have held onto for so long.
I never felt I had moved on enough to let my soul be criticised and listened to. As the album is very much my journey through that time.
Tracks like Written in Your face and Mystified are painful reminders of what I would have given to have turned back time and tracks like “what would you give” and “barfly” are an echo of the ignorance I lived in, Balancing these out are my songs of thanks and of love in “Julie Saves” and “Last Dance” and “To Be Loved” is me waking up one day four and a half years down the line and realising I was the luckiest fella alive.
I don’t know if any of the tracks will carry the meaning with them or even be liked for their story, but I do believe that I have written tracks from the heart that everyone can find something in.
Thank you all for getting me here as it was the encouraging reaction from my initial ramblings and the continued support that has got me here. That and my beautiful wife, my amazing friends Ju and Kersh and arguably the best mother in Law in the world, who has done more for me with her forgiveness than any deal could bring.
Release dates will be coming soon as will a sneaky listen of a track or two.